kisah gadis lima

kenapa lima? kerana itu nombor saya!

I wanna, I wanna, I gotta be adored

Oh gigi besar saya di sini ingin mengingati anda bahawa si budak hilang fOn dan saya tak la mendahului, sebab gadis gadis yang lain pernah jugak berjumpa dgn 'besfren' kami time beraya kat umah si budak hilang fOn. tak ingat ke? kalau macamtu kte jumpe esok

the kisah of gadis lima

Coretan kat atas tadi its not the purpose for me to write at this little moment. The purpose is that im in a confusion state that i might want a bit of my girls opinion. Ok satu dua tiga GO!. i have a besfren since skewl agi,(few of u know about it) we were friends for about 4 years yang boleyh dikatakan agak lama for a really good friendship. People sed men and women cannot be besfren la kan, nnti ade je yg tak kena. But the last 4 years tu mmg bagos gile our friendship, untill he ruins everything (you guys can guess what it is right) . Yeah he falls for me da lame actually but untill Encik Unte saya, filled the empty chapter of my life, barula F (bukan nama sebenar) ni told me that he falls for me for a long long long ago. he kept giving me hints but i didnt realize at all ( i actually realize that tp wat taktau je la kan, cuz blom comfirm agi). Between F ngan Encik Unte of course i choose Encik Unte (mase tu la) la kan bcoz i dont want to ruins this perfectly friendship. Since then, our friendship jadi lain sket, sket je la, nmpkla da tak brape close,its not close, da tak brape transparent. Before this we used to share everything,secrets and all,now i didnt tell him anything bout Encik Unte ni as i dont wanna give him any hope and i already chose Encik Unte,but we still close. How am i suppose to tell him?Frankly,da rase tak brape comfortable la ngan F . The thing is F is looking forward to hang out with me, F siap set a date which is 19th of June, thursday, one day before 'budak Amerika Syarikat' party. F ajak pegi genting ok! malas btol, da la Encik Unte jual esklem kat situ, but i excuse it as 'kalu gi genting 2 org je busan' n he agreed with that. Pastu bleyh plak die ajak g karoke plak ok (imagine F and i 2 org nyanyi?like apekah~) . At the end we've decided gi fish spa. Thing is he wants memories, tak kesah la, but frankly and seriously i dont feel like hanging out with him or meeting him at this moment. Looks like im a bit selfish tp i dont want give any hope. Now shall i go out with F? or should i give excuses not to go. If nak kasi excuse pon nak kata pe? Ok a little HELP here! Before ni pon F ajak kuar a few time, but i told him i have to attend my cousins wedding,tp mmg btol pon, n agak a few time la bg reasons tu. hah! The latest F kasi guitar for my birthday pressie. Tu yang lagi rase guilty. Not guilty. Argh tatau nak rase ape! he's my besfren, sgt tak baik if buat F cmtu( cam nak avoid2 die or cm nak buat tak brape close ngan die) cmtu lah! opinion plz (put it in comment ok, love gadis gadis sekalian)

confusion state,

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