I need to find my EGO

Has anybody seen it?

dearest Intan.

Intan dah balik (previous entry) and now she's going back to US. For that, I want to use this opportunity to wish Intan all the best for this coming semester. Anda pandai dan kacak, pasti sentiasa berjaya dengan cemerlang! :) Jaga diri baik-baik, sentiasa berhati-hati ketika melintas jalan, make sure makan kat kedai yang dipercayai, sembahyang jangan tinggal, belajar pandai-pandai, jadi manusia berguna, rajin-rajin update diri anda dengan kami, and please know that we'll miss you.

Erm, which semester are you in sekarang eh Intan?

Selamat pulang ke sana, selamat perjalan bertolak dan sampai dan balik sini balik nanti, selamat memulakan semester baru.. Oh and selamat berpuasa!!

Selamat berpuasa semua :)

Notice

Genap setahun menghilang.

Kini INTAN kembali.

FUNNIER

COOLER

AND MORE AWESOME

THAN YOU EVER REMEMBERED

Nantikanlah kepulangan dia

In 5 days

TOLONG BUATKAN SAYA LEBIH KUAT DARIPADA SUPERMAN DAN KAWAN-KAWANNYA!!!

TOLONG!
TOLONG!!
TOLONG!!!!!!

Kawan

Kawan kah kita jika kau selalu menghilang tanpa khabar berita?

Kawan kah kita jika kau tak menghiraukan sesama kita?

Kawan kah kita jika kau memilih-milih antara aku dan dia?

Kawan kah kita jika kau hanya berpura-pura?

Senyum, gembira dan ketawa bersama tapi di belakang kau sebenarnya orang yang berbeza.

Sekali-sekala aku berfikir, kawan kah kita? aku dan engkau dan juga mereka?

Kita kawan kah?

Aku tahu siapa kawan, aku yakin kau bukan orangnya.

Tell me who he is

So today I succumbed to peer pressure and added somebody I didn't know on Facebook.

Who on earth is Wan Mohd Farish?

Somebody tell me please.

HAHA

Same sadness are painful to bear even more painful to talk about.

I know some out there are screaming and kick just to stay up,

So, here is my tips whenever im down and refuse to share my story, (because i just refuse too)

- I make warm tea and load it with sugar. *break that rule when you r down*

- went for a run just as the sun is setting. *you'll be amazed on how pretty the world is in yellowish and orangey color*

- stayed under the shower as long as i want. *cold shower ease the fire within*

- sat under the stars and pitch black sky. * another wonderful thing we just take for granted*

- eat butterscotch bread with milk. * wonders in my mouth*

- sleep in the dark, fan blasted to the fullest. * this always do the trick *

I dunno whether this would help any of you, but it definitely help me through my hardship. forever sickness, heartbroken, and abandonment.

but you need to have this positive thinking in your mind. " Tomorrow is a new day" but do live day by day to it fullest, exhaust it.

Laugh, cry, jump, fall, scream, run, dance, drink, eat. Do all. Make sure you are tired in the end of the day.

love you,

Let's take a walk with me in this filthy world.

Tainted with hatred and ignorance

Filthed with hypocrisy and pretentious

It is easier to give up than fight

It is easier to take that plunge and abandon the ship

Drifted in the darkness

Dwell in sadness and self pity

But then again that what mortal would do,

we are no mortal,

so we shall seek in that wonders that naked eyes couldn't see

and believe in higher power that is Mighty Fair and Mighty Powerful,

none given to us without a battle or a war so that this immortal hearts of ours

would know,

happiness is worth fighting for.

even that glimpse of happiness is worth a battle of a lifetime.

Death is blessing. It is not the end but a step closer to mighty Allah.

Al-Fatihah.

sob :'(

Zqa, eG, intan, and budak SKTM1, ini budak sekolah kita :( I feel so sad when i get to know this. Baru dapat tahu but it happened about a month ago. Sedih sangat that it brought tears to my eyes. Semoga roh kedua-dua arwah dicucuri rahmat.
*copied from my blog*

Do you know when you'll be gone? How much time you have left? How you'll die? I just found out that a dear friend, had passed away. He was involved in an accident. Innalillah.

He was a classmate when I was in standard 5, sat beside me in class. After primary school, we didn't attend the same high school but I met him on facebook and we chatted for a bit. But I've stopped sending him wall messages and he has stopped replying. This was long ago, about a year or so. That day I saw him on my friends' list and had the urge to say 'Hi' but didn't. And 10 minutes ago, I found out that he's gone forever. I regret my actions, or the actions that I did not take. He was indeed a good friend. A naughty boy back then. Every new wall messages that he has on his facebook came from those people who miss his presence. He must have been a great person, which I didn't get to know too well about.

http://ondscene.blogspot.com/2010/02/ibu-dan-ayah-maut-anak-kritikal-lori.html
Astaghfirullahalazim.

Azri Hazim(1988-2010). Al-Fatihah.

Never take friends for granted. Never take anything for granted. While we're all still healthy and happy, I want you people to know that I'm very blessed to have you in my life. Alhamdulillah. Sayang korang!

help!!!!

Semua orang busy. Saya pun busy. Busy nak mati macam hampir mati. Stress menggunung. Kerja tak siap-siap. ARGHHHHHH!!! Tolong girls! I need guidance!

haziqah is fine

Bismillahirahmannirrahim. Lets start it with prayer to Allah. Im blessed that Im still alive with lovely family and especially my cool-awesome-wicked girls.

I dont need a man - PCD because I have awesome people like you. Yes as same as Jaja, Im that BUSY, that I dont even have time to get my meal properly. Im too tired that my bed sounds awesome even when my stomach is lullaby rhythmically. I dont give a damn about eating. and most important is that I have no idea what I do when I logged in to facebook which I usually have a lot of random people to stalk. OOooppss! ha ha. That is so keji right people. Being a stalker is not keji but what's not is damn keji. oh except that I tweet so much while waiting for the class and if I get bored in the class. ha ha!

A lot of things on my mind. Preparations for the presentations, helping out with my dinner thingy, more test to come, draft out script for Mandarin project, submissions of the big report, and group discussion that will never end. ohhh thats too much

The last week of lecturer I'll be having 5 tests! That is sooo Test-ical! huurrghh. Inbound or outbound I have to prepare mentally and physically because I think I suck! and that is the most disappointing ever! Im such a careless and clumsy person. Even I've practice a lot, and when Im nervous Im starting to be careless person. Aaaarrgghhh. I dont know what to do to avoid my careless and clumsy habit!

So Ive been evaluated by my lab lecture, she said that I have a very good skills in doing experiment, I analyze everything, I did my pre-lab work, I have the chemist-ly thing whatever, except the fact that I AM THAT CLUMSY. Yes I admit that. Fuck!

oh yeah my family will be leaving me soon for umrah. Sedih tak dapat ikut. Wrong timing gile! aarghh, but whatever, Im not ready pon nak pegi sane again. Just that I'll be alone without mom, sister which I used to text them to get my support. aarghh. I know I have you girls. Them that made me happy! oh yeah and besides them, its GLEEEEEE! Girls, watch Glee, Glee made my day, made me happy! Glee made, Im on top of my lungs. seriously!

So here are some random picture!



I used to be ziqah-pose on the camera, or ziqah-camera-ready but not recently! I think I have to make up everything. ggrrrr.

p/s : girls. like seriously Najib never stop mentioning about getting married. annoying jugak. what's that suppose to mean, I tot perempuan je yang suke kawen kawen ni, but its otherwise. scary.

pp/s : perlu ke mentioned that thing? Perlu! because Im confuse.

Wassalam

short update.

I'm in a middle, or at the starting point of studying for French quiz tomorrow. Wish me luck!!

Di sini saya nak berterima kasih dekat the writer of the previous two entries. Terima kasih banyak sebab speak up dan membuka mata kami. Dengan penuh kesedaran, kita nak start merajinkan tulis entry di sini untuk update kan diri kepada kamu semua. And you people can visit my blog, life-happenings.blogspot.com to know more about what's happening in my life :)

Currently, I'm working on my Final Year Project (FYP) that consumes a lot of my brain, bothers me all the time and worries the heck out of me. Apart from that, I've got other assignments due in two weeks and one midterm exam and two French quizzes this week. Yes, such a busy bee.

Life, overall, I'm trying to cope, learning new ways of dealing with bumps I encounter in life. The most important thing I've learnt so far, "take things easy, and just be happy [wise guy; 2010]". Definitely help me calm and take things more lightly. Bila fikir balik, benda macamni tak perlu ada orang pesan, sendiri faham sudeh tapi saya, sebagai seorang manusia, selalu lupa bahawa kebahagiaan itu wujud. I sometimes focus more on negative side of the story and jadi emotional tak tentu pasal,. Cari penyakit kan? Hehe. So yeah, apart from studies, family, and friends, I'm learning the good way to live your life.

By the way, I've graduated my swimming lesson so now I can go play with you guys in the swimming pool! Yeay. Kalau ada sesiapa sedar, Jaja tak main jauh-jauh pun masa Intan punya bbq last time. Sebab saya takut air. Not anymore though! =D

Last thing, next semester, starting June, I'll be doing internship with Proton, hopefully the Shah Alam branch. I so hope you Uitm Shah Alam people will still be there and I hope we'll get to spend more time together! Okay, enough for now.

Good night my lovely ladies.

-jaja

Ini adalah saya.

Selepas membaca entry yang terbaru di bawah ini, rasa seperti nak mengupdatekan diri kepada kamu semua. As Jaja said, we need to practice friendship right? Jadi, mari lah mengupdate kan diri masing2 di sini :)

1. I am now currently not single. so frankly I am mostly happy setiap masa which is annoying I know. but hey the first three month suppose to be some kinda honeymoon period right? and I really hope you girls will be friendly and nice to him. He's the nicest and kindest guy I've ever met. Though he's a bit shy and nerdy, but he's great once you get to know him :)

2. One of my best friend hates my guts right now. Honestly, I think he's jealous with the fact i have someone else now. So he accuse me for leaving and ignoring him (baru seminggu tak msg okay) and said what a crappy friend I am then he just disappeared. I've been texting and calling him for the past 2 weeks apologizing and he ignored me. very mature indeed. huh. So I finally decided to just give him the boot. Thought it's kinda hard. I do love and care about him but this is not the first time he's giving me a hard time. I am hurt by what he said and the way he can treat me like trash all through our friendship. Deep down it's eating me up inside and I don't want to let go. sedikit obses di situ. sorry. I am pathetic when it comes to friendships. What do u guys think I should do?

3. Selain itu, Tuan rumah saya sekarang menimbulkan masalah pula. Dia telah mengambil tindakan untuk menghalau kami dari rumah hujung bulan 4 nanti. bukan sahaja itu, dia telah mengambil kesempatan kat kami dengan menyuruh kami bayar bil maintenance dan indah water yg telah di janjikan dahulu tak perlu bayar. sekarang kami perlu bayar bil untuk 2 tahun punya. korang boleh byg tak? horror! then my mum called to settle masalah ini semua, dia boleh cakap mak saya sibuk dan tak ada budi bicara malah mengadu pada kawan saya mengatakan mak saya jerit2 padanya. Jadi pada bulan 5 nanti, iaitu musim final exam dan presentation final year project, kami tiada rumah dan terpaksa merempat tah ke mana. sedih kan? jahat betul makcik tu. sigh.

Share with me what's going on with you girls, i would love to know :)

saya.

from heaven with love

Hello Girls,

What a long time! We were suppose update our stories in here. Dont we? Well, I know that you guys can smells the black writing of mine.

You guys been a great friends through all my life. Complete me with laughter and happiness that I dont know how do I live without you girls. Im counting on you people to be happy with me and be there for me when my world turn me down, as I dont have anyone else. I do have friends, but I dont know why I dont trust most of my friends but you girls. We need each other. and even though we need each other, but we cant be there for each other because of business of life, right?

Sometimes you dont realize that one of us is hurt and you dont know about it because you're being oblivious but do you even care? I do care what happen with you. We shared the happiness things, but what about the sad part? No one knows right? When it comes to the sad part, does each of us shared together? Yes you shared with only people who's very close to you. that you feel that she's the only one who understands you. what about others? what about the one who does not have anyone else to talk to, to listen to the sad story?

And so I've come into one hypothesis. As were grow older, each of us will eventually tear apart, will eventually have their own life, share the happiness moment with true soul mate. There fore, I have to prepare and be prepared for more future to come that eventually I have to accept the fact that life has tear us apart. I dont blame life, I just have to prepare that probably one day, one of us is not one us anymore! Is that possible?

So girls, I wish everyone get a life and be happy.

AWESOME

Almost lupa the existence of this blog.

Well I want to give you guys a present.

Sunyi Gile

Weyh, mane semua orang ?