aku adalah aku.

ku rindu kalian semua
teringatkan kisah-kisah suka dan duka yang tak pernah padam dalam ingatan
di manakah semua?
hidup bukanlah fantasi yang sering muncul di dalam mimpi
girang dan tawa bertopengkan kedukaan
aku ingin kamu kenal aku sepenuhnya
sesungguhnya kamu semua orang terpenting dalam hidupku
ku tahu...
menghadapi dunia realiti bukanlah indah
namun pabila bersama kalian
seperti semua yang bingung lenyap seketika
aku sangat menyintai persahabatan ini lebih dari segalanya

-aku-

my dear girls.

These pictures made me smile. Hope they'll brighten your day too.

-h.h

bestfriend's forever??

have u ever felt lost..??
as if everything around is not even remotely familiar or the faces u've known suddenly became strangers to u...
have u ever been ditch by someone who u consider to be ur bestfriend?true friend.
who will accept u for who u are..
be there for u when u need them the most..
laugh at ur jokes as if it was the funniest thing they'd ever listen to (even though its not)
cry with u when u are bawling ur eyes out..
be ur friend til the day u die..
but one fine day..
that person decide to walk out of ur life..
throw hurtful words at u..
make u shed tears when once that person was the one who wipes them off..

i don't understand y some people can just throw away meaningful friendship
i mean...
don't u feel that friendship is one of the most valuable thing u can ever have aside from family and money?
friends are the one we turn to when tough times strikes or laugh our ass off when we're happy..
who's to be blame when shit like that happens?
when suddenly..
ur bestfriend is a stranger to u..

my bestfriend is a stranger to me

-bHh-

short-term memory

What would you feel when ur try so hard to memorize everything,and put all the effort with full of determination to memorize it yet, you still cant remember what you had just memorized? or precisely, VANISHED.

yes, short-term memory. That's really ME
How can i deal with it?
super-BIG-sigh

Sigh

You know what I miss?
I miss being Wan Intan Suhaila..
I miss being the nerd at the front of the class..
I miss being the girl who pakai tudung senget..
I miss being "Kakak Rushdi"
I miss being that girl who waits for the bus under the big tree in front of the canteen with her friends..
I miss beli air anggur, air soya or sirap bandung lepas balik sekolah..
I miss my wallet yang color biru lepas tu ada tulis "ROCK STAR" which i bought at "Lovely Lace" and I usually only have RM2 dalam tu as duit belanja..
I miss being Intan Si pendek..
I miss being the happy loser that I was..
I miss being Intan yang duduk sebelah Abry..
I miss going over and stay back petang2 dekat rumah Abry..
I miss waiting for people at LRT Wangsa Maju bile weekend datang sebab kite plan dari hari Rabu hari tu nak pergi KLCC..
I miss naik kereta Wira Hitam yang air-con rosak time balik dari LRT station wangsa maju dengan abang and on the way balik kene beli telur 20 biji dekat pasar mini dekat jalan J..
I miss KK YAP..
I miss Medan Baru and Medan Lama..
I miss bragging about my handsome brothers to people who actually know my brothers..

I miss that moment in time..when all of that was the present life..when all of that happened every week..

Hating the world and loving it

This piece of writing is directed to people other than YOU GUYS..


Never thought i'd be a cynic or a pessimist...
But..the world is over rated..or at least the people in it are..
YES..people are over-rated..their kindness..their loyalty..their decency..their trustworthiness..
PEOPLE SUCK..
And thats the truth

ONE fewuwuh. Im having my Internet Programming final paper on this coming SUNDAY. Its sunday, where everyone should enjoy the holiday, while Im having by big examination. Yes, I should be studying right now but Im tired with those stupid codes! It really giving me a big headache. I've had enough. My big question is, why oh why I need to learn this subject! (stupid uitm!)

TWO Oh I really miss our 'gigi besar', Its like seriously miss her,I need her! never heard from her for quite a long time jugak, n all of you, of course. Those old days that we used to have, but now it all changed.


THREE you guys are the coolest friend ever,AGAIN,Im telling this.Therefor, Im sorry I have to say this, Im not looking foward for hanging out with you guys this coming holiday, because I really wanna be with me.You guys are the BEST thing for me,and for that, I want to give the BEST of me to all you,because right now I feel I am bad,horible friend ever. I even cant give my hand when one of you are in trouble. Im sux. So, I need little time to bring out the BEST in me,so I could give that to all of you.Im sorry, again.


FOUR I really miss my boyfie, I cant deal with it. I know, today's technology is way too perfect to deal with this feelings, but its the feelings that you have to keep it for yourself,at some point! naahhhh, I just miss him

Bad,
J